Final Day

So far so good.

Birth mom arrived today...I was cursing her earlier in the day, yes sometimes I can't control the bitterness.  I thought she was coming earlier...anyways I was delighted to see her.   So I'll have company for at least a week, but I need to stay in control of the food and the exercise, and I will.  Why you ask?  Well I'm going to Cuba and I need to get down to 130, that is the ideal goal.  That means 12.5 more pounds to go.  I have how many days left?  Let me count.  Ok I have 34 days left before we leave.  12 pounds in 34 days...can I do it?  Patty says for sure, so that's cool and I know I can do this if I focus.  I need to work out everyday, count my calories, no more than 1400 calories a day, ideally between 1200-1300.  It's that easy, right?

The numbers are going down!  They just need to keep going down to pre Christmas weight of 136 at minimum.

Getting some time in on the Wii Fit.  Fun Stuff!

I got on the Wii Fit today, and the numbers do not lie. 

Check this out - December 18 my weight was 136.  Dec 27 weight is 149.  13 pounds in 9 days.  This has to be a record.  Talk about lack of control.  I skipped 140 though 148 and ended up at 149. 

This extra poundage has to melt off of me as quickly as it went on.

Well...Today was the day.  I did it.  I stepped on the scale.  Holy Crap.  148.5.  This is 5.5 pounds more than my guesstimate.  Ok - I have some work to do.  I will be tracking my food on an excel sheet that I found on line.  Not sure if I can post it here?  Maybe I can copy and paste...we'll see.

10 pounds in two weeks.  That is how quick I have gained this last bit of weight.  I have never been this heavy.  This is new, good thing it won't be for long.

I am feeling hungry right now, Think I'll have some carrot sticks.  Don't want to completely obsess about this all day, but need to take action.

Measurements were,  38 hips and 34 waist I think.  I hate measuring.

This pic on the right was taken about three months ago.  I remember thinking then that I needed to get a grip.  I am definitely heavier now.

The pic on the left was taken about 4 months ago.  I felt good that weekend at my girl friends cottage.  Then look at me a month later...it all goes so quickly.

Bingeing on and off today...and drinking, the inlaws are over :).  It's all good, until I weigh in tomorrow :).  Well I need to know where I am to determine where I am going, right?

I will take my measurements too...scary!  

Need to keep track of what I am eating as well.  Now, I originally thought that I would follow the zone principles...now i am thinking that maybe, maybe, maybe I should be following Weight Watchers.  I like the point system, looks pretty easy to follow, and will allow me eat things that I like.  What i like about the zone, it works, but it is soooo restrictive.  I will definitely need to do more research on the WW plan.  In fact I have a co-worker who could help me as she is a leader, we'll see.  Counting points seems to be easier than counting blocks.  Another thing I could do for the "instant" appeal is the Isagenix program, I still have some shake mix left

Reality Check

I guess that I am about 143 right now.  I have not weighed myself in about a week.  Last check I was between 138-140.

Been struggling in and around this weight for a bit.  Last summer when I quit smoking I was horrified at being 138.  I started personal training.  I was unable to make a long term commitment.

I was struggling emotionally back the too.  Struggling with other demons as well.  Trying to gain control, still.  This quest is about gaining control about what I want in my life.

First things first, yes it is vain, but...I want to look good.  You look good, you feel good.

The weight challenge - 130 is the number.  I want to be fit too.  Well I guess I just want the world.  The thing is I just figured it out and the world is for me to have.  It is mine for the taking , so I'm gonna make it all happen.

Day One - Getting Ready

Day One - This blog is for me and my quest for balance.  Balance with food, eating habits, work and other demons.  It s about leading a healthy life and making the right choices.

This is about seeing results - This is a challenge.  Challenge to be the best I can be.  To learn - never give up - the need to grow never stops.