Day 4

Spent some time today reading all the wonderful blogs out there. Got me to thinking about this journey of accountability and why I am here in the fist place.  Balance.  Health.  Me.  Commitment.  These are some of the words running through the head, there are many more but sometimes I can't quite catch them.  I need to stop and try, someday...

Took some pics today.  Last picture were taken about two weeks ago, so I am hoping to see some differences.  

I need to start embracing this journey.  Stop looking for quick fixes.

DAY 3

Day 3 was a snow Day.  Followed the meal plan, got my exercise in, Yeah!  But the scale shows 139.5 on Day 4 - WTF!!  

Take a deep breath - keep doing what you are doing.  1 week till take off.  Keep focused for Day 4.

Day 2

Another great day.  Goals accomplished!  Worked out, ate well!  Tried my best.  Tomorrow - focus at work - get it done and move forward.

The 10 Day Challenge

Ok.  It is official, I have booked the trip and we are going.  Just hubby and I - off to Cuba, where we will spend a week filled with sunshine, swim up bars, cycling, laughing, walking, talking, sex, did I mention lots of sex.  Hubby and I have not had a week to ourselves in 10 years.  

So where am I with my plan?  Today I weighed 138, I know another gain.   I have stepped in up a notch and have entered into the 10 Day Challenge.  Do my best for 10 days.  That's it.  Work out everyday.  Cardio and strength - easy peasy!!!  It better be!  I look at the pics of me in the bikini - if I can even call it that with the silly little skirt and there is work to do - what can I do in 10 days though - that is the question.  Ok so work out - check.  Done, completed for Monday, cardio and strength.  Eating - did well - remember few weeks ago I spent what $50 bucks on that wedding day diet, I am following those principles today.  Protein, fat and green veg - no other carbs.  Again 10 days thats it.  When I get back - the diet will be less strict because I want oatmeal for breakfast and the ability to have eat WW bagels and breads.   But I'll worry about that later. But for now...gotta do what I gotta do.

I created this blog late last year - when I gained 13 pounds in 10 days.  Lack on control - this was me - I just let everything go.  i have since reigned myself back in - and can't seem to get where I need to be.   Since starting this blog and reading other blogs, I see my all or nothing attitude.  If I can't do it right then I might as well destroy everything - what I have learned is that I seek some balance in my life.  Balance with eating, yes.  Balance with family, most definitely, balance with work.  I seek balance and harmony in my life.  To feel good about me, my body, my choices, to feel good about my family, to feel that I am accomplishing what my family needs form me, whether it be food, household organization, me time, etc I need to feel or better yet try an find the balance in all these components of my life.

The Flu Bug

Well, its January and I have the flu bug...yuck!  No eating right, no exercising.  snot rags,  Advil Cold and Sinus, baths, diet coke and "Angry Housewives Eating Bon Bons" by Lorna Landvik. Fantastic book, great company when feeling like crap.

Next week will be a better week.  Exercise, eating right and positive thoughts.  I am down a pound and a half - who knew?  My goal fro my trip was 130, seeing as I leave in 11 days and weigh 136.5 - not sure this can be reached safely in the next 11 days.  So here is my commitment - starting 2morrow, yes 2morrow as I still like crap 2day, 20 mins of cardio everyday and my 20 minute strength training - from Monday to Friday.  This means a workout in the morning and a workout in the evening.  I can do it!!!!

How Quickly Things Change

Have not worked out, have not eaten according to the plan.  Why is it so easy to fall off the routine?

Two weeks and I leave on holidays.

I feel like crap today, definitely coming down with something.

Feeling overwhelmed at work too! I need to go to bed and get some rest.  Keep trying, just because I slipped does not mean I have to completely fall and wipe out.

Things I need to focus on

1.  Pay Bills - Sunday

2.  Book Trip - Sunday

3.  Learn how to voice dial on BlackBerry

4.  What is the boy doing for the weekend - tonight

5.  Weekly Report - tonight 

6.  The Boy - lactose free milk - email Dad - done

7.  Laundry - now

Uh oh!

It all started on Friday, I was out for lunch, with my bmob - she leaves on Tuesday and we had Sushi....mmmmm.  then I proceeded to have apple pie.  Not good!

Saturday - what was I thinking, I wasn't and started binge eating.  Mostly sweets.  Tomorrow will be a new day.

Sunday - ate a meal late, and could not stop, started with crackers, then sweets, I'm still craving sugar and carbs

Scale Envy

Loved the scale this morning...138.5 yeah, I'm getting there.  Three weeks and I am off on vacay, and there is still work to be done.

Diet going well.  Eating 21 grams of protein and 14 grams of fat for 5 meals.  Unlimited green veggies at meal time.

I think Sunday will be my carb day again.  Steel cut oats, apples mmmyummy.  

Workout went great tonight.  I am getting the hang of this set, was able to do 2 reps of 12 on almost every exercise.  

Next strength training session will be on Saturday morning.

Do I dare the scale in the morning?

I love this diet, I still have one more meal.

Trucking Along

Tomorrow I will weigh again, looking for results people, looking for results.  i freaked out last Wednesday when the scale showed a lousy drop, I would like a pound and a half atleast...please!!!

Carb Up Day

Well yesterday was carb up day, yum yum!

According to the Wedding Day Diet, carb up day should consist of your weight x 1.5 - My goal was 210 carbs spread throughout 5 meals.  With carb up day you want to cut the fat to compensate for the extra calories in the carbs.  

My carbs consisted of apples, banana's, steel cut oats, WW bread with fruit jam (mmm that was yummy).

The scale kind freaked me out this morning, up a pound and a half since last weigh in - I should not have weighed myself, I know...argh!  When will I learn.

Today I am back to nuts and bolts of the Wedding Day Diet.  

I need to eat 105 grams of protein (throughout 5 meals), 56 grams of fat (throughout 4 meals) 1 meal has no fat, this is the post workout meal.  And of course unlimited GREEN vegetables...this has been interesting!  This is the Kick ASS fat burning Diet, and this had better work!  

Last week I did this process Thursday, Friday and Saturday - what I forgot to do, and I forgot this morning as well was to eat a piece of fruit.  I am allowed one piece of fruit and this should be eaten in the morning.  Tomorrow I will remember!

I will weigh myself on Wednesday and see how things are.  

The Wedding Day Diet

Wednesday's weigh in got me thinking...I need to lose fat and I need to lose it fast.  I got on the information filled highway and started researching...what I have come up with is the the Wedding Day Diet.  Basically I am not eating carbs, with the exception of green veggies.  I do have carb days, but all carbs have to be good carbs.  It is drastic, yes.  But I need to take drastic measures in order to meet me goals.  After reading the science behind the glucose, and no I won't bore you, I know I can do this.  If i feel spaced out because my glucose levels are down, I'll have a carb day.  In order to get good fat burning by reducing carbs, I have to have low carbs for a minimum of three days - that I can do!  This is when burning fat is at its highest (i think anyway) If I feel low energy in the morning when I wake, I can have some fruit. 

So I started this on Thursday...did I mention I paid $68 CAD to download this diet and then later found free articles about this process, anyways this is what happens when you are desperate.

I had hubby take some pics in my bathing suit, and I hate the fat that has collected around my waist, like a tire.  I have just under 4 weeks to get rid of this.

This is the first time I have documented any sort of weight loss.  

I have not maintained my everyday cardio, but will get back to that today, going for a cardio session after blogging.  

I got on the scale this morning, I had to.  I needed to know that this was working, that this new eating plan was going to give me the results that I am looking for.  And guess what?  It did, I am down to 139, nice to be in the 130's again.  I can remember a time when I would cringe if I was in the 130's, oh how things change.  The scale is moving in the right direction!!!!  this of course makes me happy.

Weigh In Day

Are you kidding me...1/2 a pound!!  I am so irritated with that!  Ok - I have a whole week to get ready for the next weigh in.  I need to drink more water...other than that I am doing all the right things!  but oh am I mad!!!!!

I have four more weigh ins till I leave - Each weigh in has to be a minimum of 2 pounds...even that is only 8 pounds and will bring me to 133.  I want to be 130.  Come on I need to do this.  What do I need to stop eating now?  umph!

Anticipating Weigh in Day

Today's pics...

Ok.  I have not weighed myself since Jan 2...and I am so looking forward to tomorrow morning, well I better be.   Wednesdays are going to be my official weigh in days.   I have to be down another 3 pounds at least, I have to be 138.5 or less.  I'm not having another workout today.  I am tired and need to rest to keep up the morning workout (aerobic exercise).  Ok so tomorrow is the 7th - that means 5 days since a weigh in.  Ok think, I guess 3 pounds is not a realistic goal, but look at the rapid weight loss I had prior to that...argh the mind wont shut off.  Good thing is, I know that I have done what I needed to do.

Consistency is Key

Have managed not to weigh thyself...I'm scared that the number has gone up....ahhh!!  There is no reason it should though...Food intake has been good and I've been keeping track of everything and I'm anywhere between 1100-1350 calories.  I'm getting adequate protein and and I am shaking my stuff and getting some exercise.  

Was able to do two sets of 10 today instead of just one...so there is improvement...Ok I have to be proud of all this...One full week of consistent good healthy and satisfying eating and some real effort with the movin and the shakin.  Wednesday is my scheduled weigh in day....I lost so much right off the bat, and I know the next bit will not come off that quick, it will come off but i need  to want it to work at it.

Last Holiday Day!!!

The Holidays are officially over.  We've had the last supper, made by Mr Dent and it was awesome.  Curry, curry and more curry.  I did not keep track of the calories, as I couldn't.  All ok!  No workout yesterday, but I am entitled to 1 day off right.  No worries, I was back on the elliptical again this morning for a session.

Keep Going...

Well I needed to step on the scale today, I needed to see the number move farther down, and it did thank goodness.  Down another 1/2 pound.

I started the intense workout from the book today.  I did one set of the 20 minute workout, it took me twenty minutes, and I was suppose to do 2 sets.  Oh well good for day 1.  The countdown is on.  How many days till Cuba?  33?

Happy New Year

Pic - At the cottage during skinnier and warmer days :)

The new year is off to a great start - what we have so far is 6 pounds down - and the knowledge that I'm going to Cuba in 34 days, yeah baby!

I'm going to crank up the workout schedule with a new workout.  Birth Mom got the Body Express Makeover by Michael George - there is a 10 minute, 20 minute and 30 minute workout.  I want to do the 20 minute workout 3x a week.

Need to stop weighing on a daily basis - this WILL become destructive.  Work out hard - keep track of the calories and the food intake and there will be no need to weigh daily.  Next weigh in day will be January 7th.  If I ever feel the need to weigh in before then, it needs to be in the AM.

Keep going!!!